Birthdays..

Hey!

So, it's my birthday on the 29th August and I'm turning twenty! It seems pretty surreal to be turning 20 when I still feel like 15 most days. I don't feel like an 'adult', haha. Anyway, my post today is going to be a little bit more personal because I'm sure there are loads of people out there who could relate!

Basically, I lost my mum in 2013 exactly 3 weeks after I turned 17 which would've been hard enough on it's own but I then lost my brother in the February of 2014. Ever since, birthdays (understandably) have been something that I never really want to celebrate. Of course I know that that's what they'd want me to do, I know that and I always do celebrate because life goes on after all and I have to get on with my life but it still doesn't change my feelings.

I obviously miss them both so much every day, days like birthdays/christmas and anniversaries make it that little bit worse though because you just know in your heart that you need and want them there.

Turning 20 just seems like such a huge milestone in my life to not have my mum there with me. When you're younger you expect your mum will be with you always, to hold your hand through at least half of your life but for me, that was all ripped away from me when I was barely an adult and I've never been able to get over it. I feel like she should be here and be celebrating all of her babies no longer being teenagers... It's just scary to think that I'm only 20 - only got exactly 17 years and 3 weeks with her and it feels like no time at all. It's not fair and it just makes me sad all the time.

As for my brother not being here, it's unfair too - he was only 33 when he passed away. That's only 13 years older than I'm going to be! I feel sad that he barely got to live and properly experience life and everything it has to offer. It's so sad to think that your own head can completely tear you apart (which his did) and I always feel like there is a definite hole in the room at family dinners when he isn't there - mostly cracking silly jokes! :)

Anyway, I just thought since I was feeling a bit 'meh' about my birthday I'd do this little post.. Thank you for reading!

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20 Important Things to Remember.

Hey lovelies!

Seeing as it's my 20th birthday on the 29th August I figured I'd do a couple little personal posts! Anyway, here are 20 important things to always remember. 

1. Family is number one. Never take them for granted, spend time with them, cherish them, love them. They are yours and always will be.
2. Friends are a close second. You'll go through many friends, some you're still talking to, some you can't even look at. That's ok. They were there when they were supposed to be. 
3. Your body weight/shape fluctuates. Stop stressing about it. 
4. You are beautiful no matter what your skin is like, what your hair looks like, what weight you are etc.
5. Be proud of yourself, you have done good things today.
6. Learn to accept yourself - be loving towards yourself and your body, you only get one after all.
7. You are so important to people, don't you ever let yourself forget it.
8. If you're miserable, talk to someone, there is always help.
9. Do not succumb to peer pressure. If you don't want to do something, don't and vice versa.
10. Treat others how you would prefer to be treated.
11. Your school years may not be the best years of your life and thats OK, mine sure weren't and I'm perfectly fine with that.
12. Nobody is perfect. Not a single soul (except maybe Angelina Jolie)
13. Always go after what you really want in life.
14. Follow your dreams.
15. Never go to bed on an argument, always sort things out.
16. It's okay to not be okay. You will be one day.
17. If you don't do well in school, it's not the end of the world - you can fix that!
18. It's impossible to keep absolutely everybody happy.
19. Put your happiness first. 
20. You will kiss many frogs until you meet your prince/princess.

Well, there's 20 important things to remember from me! I hope you enjoyed :) 

I enjoyed writing them! It's hard to keep things in perspective sometimes so this will be good for me to even look back on and remind myself of whats important.

Thank you for reading!

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My Brow Dream Team!

Hey lovelies!

So after around 3/4 years of having to fill my eyebrows in (because I have barely ANY hair where I should!) and countless products bought, I think I have finally found my brow dream team.

Here it is:

From left to right it is the Maybelline Brow Drama Sculpting Mascara, Illamasqua Brow Cake in Gaze (sidenote: I have had this since late 2014 and I use it almost daily and look how much I still have!!) and lastly, Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Pomade in Dark Brown. I've almost finished this after over a year having it and using it every day!

I start off with the Dipbrow and define the lower line of my eyebrows and do the same on top and fill it in going from the tail of my brow to the front and when there's less product on my brush I brush it upwards at the front of my brow. Then I go in with the Brow Cake and darken the tail of my eyebrows as I don't actually have any hair there and finally go over with the Sculpting Mascara!

If you'd like to see me doing it then check this video out! :)

Normally I just clean them up after with whatever concealer I'm using at that time!

I hope you enjoyed this post, I'd love to hear what your fave brow products are! :)

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Purple Haze Halo Eye

Hey lovelies!

Another makeup post for you all today!

It's on this really pretty purple halo eye:

For the Eyes/Brows I used:

Anastasia Dipbrow Pomade in Dark Brown
Illamasqua Browcake in Gaze
Maybelline Brow Mascara
Makeup Geek eyeshadows in Corrupt, Peach Smoothie and Bitten
MAC eyeshadows in Sketch and Plum Dressing
Glittertubes Pressed Glitter in Tease
Illamasqua Gel Liner in Infinity
Makeup Revolution Awesome Metals in Rose Gold
Soap & Glory Thick and Fast Mascara

For the skin/lips:

Jeffree Star lipstick in Redrum
(although I don't support him anymore I'm using this product up and then throwing it in the trash)
NARS Radiant Creamy Concealer in Vanilla
Rimmel Match Perfection Foundation in Ivory
Makeup Revolution Cream Contour Kit
Anastasia Beverly Hills Powder Contour Kit in Light-Medium
MAC MSF in Soft & Gentle

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Top 5 Must Follow Instagram Accounts

Hey lovelies!

Sorry about the delay in blog posts, I've not been very well and could barely stop sneezing/coughing long enough to sit down and write Tuesday's post so I decided to just give it a miss this one time and do one today if I felt better. Thankfully, I do so here I am! :)

I decided to do a must follow Instagram accounts on only people that are similar to me in that they don't have a huge following because I feel like they should have a much bigger following and deserve the recognition! So, in no particular order, here are my top 5 smaller Instagram accounts you should be following:

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Mark's Golf Day/Fundraising Night.

Hey!

So for anyone that doesn't know, my big brother, Mark passed away on the 3rd February 2014. He suffered from mental health issues throughout most of his teenage and adult life. He was only 33 when he died and it broke our family and his friends hearts. He was very much a loved, wonderful guy by everyone who knew him and I always feel blessed to have not only known him but have him as my big brother and another fatherly figure to me!

Anyway, since last year, a few of Mark's closest friends have decided to do an annual sporting event in his memory which of course, my family were happy for them to do. They decided on a golf tournament where around 40 guys who knew and loved Mark all get to compete and have a good day in memorial of him. There's a trophy (amongst other prizes) that the guys taking place can win. The trophy gets engraved every year with the winning team member's names! 

Anyway along with the golf tournament, this year there is a fundraising night where people can donate to the Scottish Association for Mental Health which of course me and my family agreed was an amazing cause!
I'm going to leave the donation page >>>> here <<<< so if you want to donate, you can!

Update:

It's the day after and my stepdad's team won yesterday and getting to hand over the trophy to him along with my two nephews (who are Mark's babies) was amazing and such a lovely experience! The donation page has also passed the £1000 target which honestly is amazing and I am so grateful for Mark's great bunch of friends, my other brother Alan's great bunch of friends and our family who made the day and night amazing!

Thanks for reading, I know it's a bit different but I hope you enjoyed nonetheless!

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Golden Bronze Halo Eye.

Hey lovelies,

Today's post is a little Golden Bronze Halo eye! I was inspired, in all honesty, by the weather to do this halo eye, haha! You'd think in July it'd be somewhat nice weather... but no, no it's not. It's rainy and gloomy and sometimes cold! That's what I get for living in Scotland I suppose! Anyway, I figured that I could put a little bit of glittery sun on my eye :)